Another blood-splattered day. I can't practically imagine what is going to happen from the future if this were to continue. I keep having nightmares almost everyday, and I could even suddenly wake up in the dead of the night, my body drenched with perspiration, the bloody scenes of soldiers dying ingrained in my mind, their screams echoing through my ears. What has the human come to? Why do we invent such artillery just for the destruction of mankind? Why do we go against our beliefs, and slay countless of innocent men, who wish for peace and tranquility?
Had a terrifying experience today too. As me and my comrade, Roran ran into the battlefield, we saw bullets strafing almost everywhere. As we fired our guns and used knives to slash our enemy, a bullet powered deep into Roran's legs and he collapsed like an axed tree. He was howling in pain, but I could not do anything to help him. If I carried him back, I would be endanger my life and his as we would be sitting ducks as we walked through the battlefield. But I couldn't just leave him alone. But better me than both of us killed. I could not stop remembering the despaired look on his face as I left him. The emotional torture is too great. I feel that my soul had been mutilated beyond repair.
I could only wait. And see. Hope I would survive.
Yours truly,
Saphira